Category:Poem

words by barbara doduk 1. twilight night of life born in love divorced hate family Twizzler stick chewed raw green blue blooming mistrust infidelity lusty neighbour married label more questionable likeable friends flowering fake fun and children playing swing set disasters and wagon running over little fingers nails popping bloodied scenes of laughter horror rusty …
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words by barbara doduk 5. and blushing girls smiling over the waste baskets clinging to the record spinning hanging off the tail of the rat they called mine or was it his or theirs or no ones in the end and does it even really matter to me any more and caressing sleeves little pathetic …
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words by barbara doduk 4. and in a blizzard swirl of lights like a hurricane blowing around the sticky room looking into the idiot grins with eyes wide open pupils dilated like big rim filled coffee mugs steaming and spinning quick then slow the music garbled belched a familiar melody my mind wrapped around like …
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words by barbara doduk 2. and the empty years shifted gears through the wasted youth of stuffed bunnies and losing teeth roller-skating accidental wipe-out fearful mother in her other life green carpet grassed the TV days baby-sitter blinked its big blue eye over the livingroom hangout and more recluse leaving behind the windows open shut …
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There’s this spaceThat pulls me inThere’s this faceThat holds my handThere’s this thingThat isn’t meThere’s this placeWhere I just bleedThere’s this ceilingThat holds me downThere’s this laughterOf those silly clownsThere’s this monsterRaging inside There’s this momentThat can’t be deniedThere’s this empty holeDeep in my heartDeep in my soulAnd there’s nothingThere’s this nothingNothing is wrongThere’s nothing …
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damn it it’s 4:18 amcan’t sleepwishing for something or someone to put me outinsomniaread half a bookdrank a down a cup of teaflipping through the TV info commercialsbuy this wonder productfour easy payments you won’t leap to the pavement just checked out the sex chatshow boringwhat size are your titswho has the biggest dicksure buddythis …
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it’s not that the morning afterlaying there in your armsisn’t something just extraordinary but the call came lateat half past threeand the conversation was confusedyet the request was clearly making it seemlike I was being used And I’m not that easyI’m not that slowI’m not the type to fall over backwardsbut here I go the …
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some dim-witted attempt at being sly pretending not to have any feelings never let them see you cry unless of course that helps you score it’s all about the image it’s all about the life style it’s all about getting the women you’re just a simple man nothing more trying hard not to get attached …
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There were small things, unnoticed by everyone but me, that he did. A secret communication between us and us alone. He hid his feelings behind stupidity even though he had intelligenceenough to deceive. Ours was a mysterious bond.He seemed cruel and cold and I seemed too forgiving and sweet.Everyone thought me a saint, patience was …
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I don’t feel much like laughterMore like wet cement.Like when people step on meThey’re leaving permanent prints. Some say you must do somethingTo somehow feel truly real.Yet sitting here, doing nothingIs much more comfortable than all that.Must be the mellowness, the sweetnessLike the bliss of emptiness.Without the fear of hurting, at leastNot more than I …
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