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Month: May 1999

Inside

There’s this space
That pulls me in
There’s this face
That holds my hand
There’s this thing
That isn’t me
There’s this place
Where I just bleed
There’s this ceiling
That holds me down
There’s this laughter
Of those silly clowns
There’s this monster
Raging inside

There’s this moment
That can’t be denied
There’s this empty hole
Deep in my heart
Deep in my soul
And there’s nothing
There’s this nothing
Nothing is wrong
There’s nothing wrong

There’s this woman hiding
Somewhere in space
There’s this mother
Holding her face
There’s this silence
Echoing in my ear
There’s this answer
Without a care
There’s this morning rising
Higher than the stars
There’s this longing
For perfection
For so much more
There’s this heartbeat
Stopping on a lie

There’s this nowhere inside
There’s this nothing
Nothing is wrong
Nothing and everything’s wrong
There’s nowhere to hide
The demon lives inside

There’s this poetry
And little sighs
There’s this wonderful
Endless moment that left me blind
There’s this little girl
Holding onto her dreams
There’s this woman
Trying hard not to be seen
There’s this heartache
That no one cares for
No one left here to see
There’s this motor car
That drives me away
There’s this ageless peace
Deep in the sea
There’s this lost ship
Drifting over
Falling over
The edge of my insanity

And there’s nothing
There’s this nothing
Nothing is wrong
Yet nothing is all right
There’s nowhere to hide
When your demon lives inside

Sleepless

damn it

it’s 4:18 am
can’t sleep
wishing for something
or someone to put me out
insomnia
read half a book
drank a down a cup of tea
flipping through the TV

info commercials
buy this wonder product
four
easy
payments

you won’t leap to the pavement

just checked out the sex chats
how boring
what size are your tits
who has the biggest dick
sure buddy
this is it

my mind is spinning
can’t shut the bugger off
wish I was a car
then I’d just get driven
a little go juice
a little wax
shiny hub
caps
nice round rubber
wheels
smooth
easy
gears

shifting
in and out
parking
lights out

wouldn’t that be divine
needing something
wish for a switch
on off
off on
off off off

nights like these
they come around too often
think I’m going to go
insane
painting
some sad attempt at art
some crazy blobby thing
no one ever understands
help wanted
needed
unanswered ad

in commercials
buy this wonder product
for
easy
statements

you won’t leap to the pavement