The World Eclipsed Me – 2

words by barbara doduk


2.

and

the empty years shifted gears

through the wasted youth

of stuffed bunnies

and losing teeth

roller-skating accidental wipe-out

fearful mother in her other life

green carpet grassed the TV days

baby-sitter blinked its big blue eye

over the livingroom hangout

and

more recluse

leaving behind

the windows open shut

closed the glass house

stoned holes

rocks shattered

blooming woman

young nubile limbs too long

lasting more on winter clouds

Christmas wrapping

tinfoil

and

interested boys

grabbing

reaching

for unattainable flowers

mourning the dead

living ghost

drifting in the shadow figures

black and cold

father confusing

far away big house

swimming in the dirty waters

tent up on the beach

bordering on the cigarette pack butts

my ashtrayed dreams

and

smoking fires

flame-less waste

on the water boat float

endless morning dew

grass blade heavy

fresh

summer sunrises

hanging out

midnight convenience store

stale beer

canned memory

over fruit loops

dripping ice cream

red wine

vomiting friend

the bus driver smiled

and the way wasn’t a set path out before us

and

more came went

and on to the new dawn

romance fantasy

of sleepless nights

long hallucinations

smoking weed

movie house alley

laughter bittersweet sympathy

beaten down

side splitting

best friend sharing

those Bill & Ted giggles

and

the day came in

rushing moment

silly girl lost the bloom

pedals fade

morgue body

on the limp lame tamed sky

words piled on top of all the world

shoulder weight

drowning deep

in the wonder youth of the me inside

and

innocence lost

drifting on the water waves

fishes bubbled

words on empty lip mouths

holding silent questions

without the less plus minus two

the end never justified the mean

and the gun

loaded the cannon

shot me out

and so there began the journey,